So my friend Eleise said that I need to blog. She said that it's theraputic and will help me relieve stress. So here I am....blogging...not that I even know what blogging is but apparently I'm doing it. I guess I'm going to take some time everyday and express my feelings about this, that or the other and hope someone might be interested in reading it. I wouldn't but that's just me. :)
So let's see...what will my first topic be???? I'd like it to be football and how I in no way understand the fascination/addiction with it, but I'd like for people to actually READ my blog so if I start there then I know many friends (Jason/Dale/Jerm, among many, many others) will never return, so I'll choose something different. How about MEN? Wait...nope...can't do that...please see reason above for not discussing football. So how about parenthood?? I think most people can understand and take an interest in this topic. So first off...does anyone else think this is possibly the hardest job EVER?? I mean, seriously! Sometimes I feel like I'm never gonna "get it." Like I try hard to be patient, which rarely happens, or I try to be a disciplinarian and I never know if I'm being too hard on them or too easy. GEESH! I get frustrated too easily (I think) and sometimes I just want a break and then I feel guilty. Really??? I have to ask the Lord daily to give me strength not completely lose my freaking mind as I try to balance work/school/kids and all that each of those things entail. And when I drop the ball when it comes to my kids...even if it's something small...I feel completely incompetant. Doing this alone I'm going to need medication...I can already see that. ;)
I can say however that some amazing friends came to me and offered to keep Jack and Savannah so that I don't have to quit school. I seriously don't know what I would do without the wonderful friends I have, since my family is so limited. I do not like to ask for help. I like to be independent. Anyone that knows me would know that I am not a weak woman. But sometimes, it just "takes a village." :)
So I guess that's it...my first blog...yeah it probably sucked but you will come back again...I just know it!!!!
